The day the genetic test came in. The doctor entered our room with compassionate eyes. She asked me to have a seat, she took one as well. Everything went into slow motion at that point. She explained to me that Charlie’s genetic test had come back positive for Down’s Syndrome. I wept. Why? Well, today I am not sure! But on that day I had a lot to process. Things that would be different from raising our other children. Our goals would be different for his life. He would never have children. We may never be “empty-nesters”. Thoughts seemed big and overwhelming. I remember vocalizing concerns to Bob as I processed our new realities. He just looked at me and said, “I know, won’t it be GREAT!!!” I smiled, readjusted myself, and said, “YES! It will be.” From that moment on, I have seen Charlie and his little diagnosis as FLAWLESS. In the world’s eyes? Maybe not. But in God’s eyes…and his mother’s eyes and his daddy’s eyes…his brother’s and sister’s eyes…his grandparents eyes…and his aunt’s and uncles eyes…and SO many friends- FLAWLESS. He was wonderfully made for God’s glory!
A few weeks after Charlie entered the hospital my big brother shared this song with me. It is a must see.
I hope this message blesses you where you are at. It is my heart’s desire that you know and understand exactly what it is that happened at the “the cross.” It was there that Jesus Christ died, he died for sinners. He died for those who are unable to be perfect. What’s so great about that you ask…well, he is the only One, God’s son, who could stitisfy the debt we owed. The only One who could pay the price for our sin that deserved eternal death-hell.
This is really good news. Amazing actually! Overwhelmingly amazing! You see I was born very flawed. Maybe not so much in my outwardly appearance. I wasn’t born with an extra chromosome. I wasn’t missing a limb. However, I was born with a much bigger problem than those… A sin problem. A sin problem that I could not overcome on my own, no matter how hard I tried. And believe me I have tried it on my own (bad idea). The God who made me and knew that I had a sin problem sent his only son do die on the cross to pay for my sins- IN FULL. And so in Jesus Christ alone, I am made -FLAWLESS!
Romans 5:8. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.