Last night many things were on the brink of not looking so good. There were signs of a possible new clot, the appearance of an oncoming fever, difficulty breathing, no sign of bowel movement and what seemed with human eyes to be nothing positive on the horizon. My cry to the Lord is that I would be able (in ANY circumstance! Any “bad” news! Any disappointment!) be able to PRAISE HIM! It is the cry of my heart so deeply that I utter it often every day in preparation for whatever might be around the next corner. This adventure with Charlie has afforded me MUCH practice of this discipline. Practice does not mean perfect, but it is practice nonetheless. Some difficulties I have handled better than others. Last night I kept reminding myself of this great opportunity I have to praise God even when I don’t “feel” like it, even when the news is difficult, the prognosis bad, or there is no apparent reason to praise. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling afraid of the future, I cried out to God to help me not give way to this tempting thought…I began to thank him for every good thing I could think of, I began to ponder Jesus and the hope for eternity that I have, the promises of His Word to uphold, protect, and prosper us. This was enough to put me back to peaceful rest.
Psalms 42:5 Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation
First thing this morning we changed Charlie’s diaper and found #2!!!!! I cannot tell you what a blessing it was!!! I wanted to run up and down the halls announcing it to everyone. I knew the surgery team and our primary nurses would join Sarah and I in our HAPPY DANCE for the sight of #2- for which we have prayed for and waited for for many weeks if not months!!!! None of those looming threats from last night came to be either! No new clot, no fever, nothing but good forward movement! God is gracious to give me ample opportunity to learn to choose my response to be that of praise…NO MATTER WHAT!
Job 1:21 the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.
Charlie has had a good day. He is very comfortable, weaning on pain Meds, and weaning on O2 support with plans to extibate him tomorrow. The plans are to start feeding him breastmilk again on Tuesday. Pray that it all works and goes well. This nourishment would be paramount for Charlie.
ANOTHER PRAISE: Do you remember a post I made back in October titled “An Inspiration”? If you didn’t see it, you might enjoy reading it with new information…Saeed has been released from prison and is being reunited with his family! This is an event my church, family and I have prayed for, for many years. What an overwhelming blessing! This man has suffered for so long for being a Christian and now he has been set free.