Dreaming…of the future


Tonight I am dreaming…as my other nine precious children sleep (and maybe dream too), I am dreaming of bringing you home.  The thought gives me the chills.  It tears up in my eyes.  It gives me a smile.  It delights me to the core.  I dream of having you here with all of us where you will be loved A LOT, you will hear A LOT of other voices, you will smell meals A LOT, you will see faces A LOT -that look a little like yours, you will be held A LOT, you will be taught A LOT, you will play A LOT, sing A LOT, A LOT, A LOT, A LOT of life happens here in this home- and I dream of the day you are back here with us again.

As I battle my thoughts of discouragement tonight.  I wonder how we will get you here?  I wonder how we will climb the mountains ahead?  I wonder when we will “turn a corner?”  Meanwhile, I am encouraged by the Dreams of actually getting you home!  I am encouraged by the visions of our sweet little 1 year-old Charlie smiling as we sing “happy birthday to you!”  I am encouraged as I think of our 2 year-old Charlie swinging from the big pine tree in our back yard with giggles erupting from your belly.  I am encouraged as I  picture 3 year-old Charlie running and playing with your siblings.  I am encouraged as I dream of 4 year-old Charlie distributing hugs to those of us in need.  Charlie, I could use one of your big hugs right now…but I will wait, I will walk, I will continue to fight for your life, I will pray, I will trust, I will love you!  You are worth it!  You are beyond worth it!  And while I wait to feel one of those 4 year-old Charlie hugs- Christ hugs me.  He strengthens me.  He sustains me. And HE is doing the same for you sweet Charlie boy.
Jeremiah 29:11   For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Two year-old Enid asked us if your sickness was “almost done?”  We told her that we hope so. She still sleeps with your picture hanging by her crib.  It was the only thing that consoled her after you left for the hospital.  She would cry every time she was put to bed while asking for you.  Thankfully Savannah thought of a brilliant idea to put your picture where she could see you and kiss you every night.  She never cried again.  We are all in this together Charlie and we are ALL fighting with you.  You have a lot to look forward to sweet boy…let’s get you home!


6 thoughts on “Dreaming…of the future

  1. Dear Debbie, I loved this post. Prayers for healing are new everyday and for the strength for you from our Lord. Love to you, Bob, Charlie and the children, Susan ❤️

    p.s. It was so good to read about the friends of your mom’s from UT who have been praying for Charlie who stopped in to see him! : )

    Sent from my iPhone



  2. Amen!!! Thanks for sharing, Debbie! We are praying, dreaming, hoping, and persevering with you! We can’t wait for all those “A LOTS” to happen!!


  3. I thought of this Psalm for you Mama Fine. I have truly been so blown away to see the incredible grace of God through your family this whole time. It humbles me tremendously, and watching Charlie has been like watching a miracle unfold. Already at such a young age, he is a wonder to many, because he’s reflecting so much of God’s power and compassion and care. Your children grow more joyful every week. Your smiles and hugs are even sweeter. How can this be? I know that it can only be the powerful work of our HEAVENLY triune awesome God!!!

    Psalm 71:1-18, ‘ In thee, O Lord, do I put my trust: let me never be put to confusion.Deliver me in thy righteousness, and cause me to escape: incline thine ear unto me, and save me. Be thou my strong habitation, whereunto I may continually resort: thou hast given commandment to save me; for thou art my rock and my fortress. Deliver me, O my God, out of the hand of the wicked, out of the hand of the unrighteous and cruel man. For thou art my hope, O Lord God: thou art my trust from my youth. By thee have I been holden up from the womb: thou art he that took me out of my mother’s bowels: my praise shall be continually of thee. I am as a wonder unto many; but thou art my strong refuge. Let my mouth be filled with thy praise and with thy honour all the day.

    Cast me not off in the time of old age; forsake me not when my strength faileth. For mine enemies speak against me; and they that lay wait for my soul take counsel together,Saying, God hath forsaken him: persecute and take him; for there is none to deliver him. O God, be not far from me: O my God, make haste for my help. Let them be confounded and consumed that are adversaries to my soul; let them be covered with reproach and dishonour that seek my hurt. But I will hope continually, and will yet praise thee more and more. My mouth shall shew forth thy righteousness and thy salvation all the day; for I know not the numbers thereof. I will go in the strength of the Lord God: I will make mention of thy righteousness, even of thine only. O God, thou hast taught me from my youth: and hitherto have I declared thy wondrous works. Now also when I am old and greyheaded, O God, forsake me not; until I have shewed thy strength unto this generation, and thy power to every one that is to come.’

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  4. Oh, praying for your sweet Charlie and for God to comfort him and heal his heart on Tuesday, for wisdom and insight for the team of specialists. May God also encourage you all and fill you with His love, so there is no room for fears.


  5. This is my favorite of all your posts, although all your posts are my favorites! Thank you for inviting us all to share in your hopes, doubts, weaknesses and strengths. I am honored to call you my friend, and you buoy me up in my troubles. God is our strength, and He is made perfect in our weakness. He gives us dreams as encouragement, and I am so edified to read of you dreaming when Charlie is 1, 2, 3, 4…. The belly laugh as he swings is a special thing to look forward to. 🙂


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